insanity

Oh hey.
Me and David got back together.
Yaaaay.
I am actually really happy about it, and life just seems to make more sense again. I don't feel as angry. I felt so angry when he and i "finished" and I feel like that isn't really how you are supposed to feel when you break up with someone. Shouldn't there be a sense of relief or freedom or satisfaction? I felt none of those things. Only anger and confusion.
Not the best combination, eh?
Anyway.
I'm glad I can figure out what I want in that aspect in my life. One less thing to worry about.
Check one on the current relationship want.
Also!
Great news!
I think I might want to go to the University of Iowa.
They have a fantastic creative writing program there-- quite possibly the best in the midwest.
Another want down? Quite possible.
On the topic of Iowa, that prospect scares the shit out of me.
Away from everything I know.
Away from my support system.
I tried that once before and I feel like i failed.
In a sense I did.
Granted-- it is not twenty-two hours away this time. It's only two.
so why am i so afraid?